Simply Southern Belle: December 2009

Well seeing as I have not updated this thing since June and it is now the end of the year, I thought it might be a good time to update! It has been quite the year, let me tell you! There have been many wonderful memories and blessings that has come with this year but it has also been a very hard year for me.

I'm very ready to say goodbye to 2009 and start over in 2010 . This year has been a very difficult one for many of those who I care most about and it has definitely left me feeling very drained and empty. For those of you who know me well, know that I have a really hard time with wanting to take on the weight of the world. This year has also been filled with a lot of disappointment and very hard life lessons for me to learn. I have also been plagued with every illness imaginable this past semester as a result of all the stress I have been under. My grades slipped, all my relationships suffered, my overall morale stayed down, my ability to stay organized disappeared and I know though that I have let my faith walk slip and know without a doubt that this has contributed to my stress. I have let myself be overcommitted and basically have not taken a break since May. I feel like my life has spun totally out of control. I have been dreading Christmas and just want it to disappear. I've gone to bed every night the past couple of weeks feeling like my life is just one big ball of chaos and there was no relief in sight. I just wanted to get on a plane and run far away.

This has been a major wake up call and I am extremely ready to get my life back on track, especially in my Walk with Christ. My faith and salvation are the absolutely most important things to me in the entire world and not having that stability and closeness with Christ has been a horrible feeling I can not even describe. I will be attending the Passion Conference (http://www.268generation.com/) in January and am so excited to renew my fire for Christ!!!!With all that being said, I would like to apologize to anyone that I may have hurt or let down this year or this past semester. I am starting over with this new year. I am looking forward to putting my life back into God's hands and letting him overflow my heart with his Grace, Peace, and Love. I'm so grateful for God's grace because I would be in so much trouble with out it. I made a new friend this semester who has blessed me so much by reminding me that "We are never beyond God's Grace".

Despite my trials, I would like to recap all the wonderful memories and blessings I was able to experience over this past year because there were certainly a lot of them :)

I went on a road rally to New Orleans with my good friends Porsche and Hillary