You will never know God is all you need until God is all you have Part 1

Dearest Friends, Readers, Random Strangers out there in cyberspace, and to whomever may stumble upon this,
  I am going to share with you the intimate details of a the journey I have been on that I refer to in this blog. I believe that to continue with my healing process that it is time to open up and share what God is teaching me and doing in my life. I do have a disclaimer though. I sincerely ask of anyone reading this that no judgement is placed WHATSOEVER on any of the persons discussed throughout this story. It is not my intention to play martyr and point out the wrongs that have been committed against me. I believe in God's unending Grace and I pray you have that towards me and all those mentioned in this journey. Now before I begin writing, I would like to have a prayer for you, me, and the persons listed in this story.

Most Gracious and Heavenly Father,
You never cease to amaze me. While my heart has doubted you so much you still open you arms every single time I turn back to you. I pray that I may have that same kind of grace to all people I encounter in my life and that the persons reading this story may also show that grace to all people they encounter in their individual lives. Lord it is with tremendous searing pain in my heart that I begin to share about this journey I have been on, but I know deep within the depths of my soul that you are preparing me for something more than I will have ever been able to imagine. I pray that as I share these words that your word would pour through my fingertips, into the computer, onto the screen and into someones heart. Lord I know that I am in a fierce battle of spiritual warfare and I am tired of losing; I pray that on this day, April 3, 2011, I may no longer let Satan over power me but that I will constantly turn to you when I feel the darkness around me. Lord I also pray this for so many people that I love who are involved in this journey who also are in unfathomable battles of spiritual warfare and are walking through the valley of the shadow of death. Lord I pray for the eyes that are reading this story of mine and that if there is a person walking on a similar journey to mine that you would allow them to feel your peace that surpasses all understanding and the presence of the Holy Spirit right now. Lord you know how much I love you and how deeply I want my heart to beat but nothing for Jesus. Let this writing be a ministry that Glorifies you and and your precious son Jesus Christ. Thank you Lord, Thank You , Thank you , Thank you!
 In Your Son's Most Precious and Holy Name,
 Amen